Second-Hand Joy

I'll visit you for awhile
Maybe recreate your inner child
I'll leave suddenly
You'll wonder what has become of me
I'll peek over your shoulder
Maybe pat you on the back
Whisper in your ear
Tell you to relax
I'll give your conscience some answers
Then i'll ask you all the questions
Perhaps visit the shadows for awhile
Take away any reason to smile
Next, I might jump into your head
Bathe where your illusions bled
I might make you a promise
Then quickly take it back
I'll call white all the shades of black
I'll make you live my way
Make you believe it's alright
Then leave you astray
With no hope in sight
I'll tell you you're brilliant
Then make sure you're insane
I'll count the times you smile
Then make you cry for awhile
I'll recommend you take some time
Find you a way to hold up the sign
I'll admire the tango, give you a chance
Then take away all the reasons to dance

Why?

Because I am joy and while I sit on your bed
Sadness is but close ahead
I close my eyes and find another place
Desert you in your empty space
I return with expectations of perpetual bliss
A devil's contract with no risk
For I am Joy
Leaving is what I do best

Exit

Standing in the rain

Cold shards of pelting pain

Casts are being opened today

Thrown to where demons lay

Vines flourishing on lives taken

Grown from fertile dreams forsaken

Glittering in a sun that begins to wane

Accusations like broken arrows are lain

Loneliness keeps the demons at bay

In their eyes is all you had to say

Amidst its drops the earth is shaken

The loneliness is gone and demons awaken

Finally, standing in the rain

Welcoming cold shards of pelting pain

Pride

You have wronged us
"I have righted your many wrongs"

You have created selfishness where there was none
"I have gifted you with strength"

You have taken from our rationality
"I have fed your minds with self-awareness"

You are loved by the shallow
"I am hated by the weak"

You are despicable
"I am desirable"

You are an illness
"I am your creation"

You are us
"I am you"

In the Deep

Thought you had all the answers
to rest your heart upon
but something happens
don't see it coming,
now you can't stop yourself
now you're out there swimming
in the deep
Life keeps tumbling
your heart in circles
till you let go
till you shed your pride
and you climb to heaven
and you throw yourself off
now you're out there
spinning in the deep

words: bird york music: bird york and michael becker